REGARDING LYMES

A Blog Begins:

(BECAUSE I NEED TO START SOMEWHERE! ) 

I answered an email recently, a questionnaire about my most vexing symptom of Lymes.  I replied that after I kicked the initial dreadful, horrible, nightmarish symptoms, I lurched into the next mode: "healing."  Skipping forward then, for years I seemed to have no symptoms, although I began to have unbelievable cramping and candida.  My most troublesome symptoms grew then into attitude, knowledge, and belief.  I was a personal trainer and I wanted to understand my symptoms.  (I knew I had Lymes, diagnosed: told in detail in FONDLY, BOB.)  I wanted to know what was happening, MYSELF.  I wanted control over my body.  I would not travel to India, visit a Dr. once a whenever for a new pic in my arm, or a new antibiotic.  I want control over my symptoms rather than them over me or an external entity over me.  

Oddly enough, I encountered a woman in a group setting where the discussion led to Lymes. I was still not a "prisoner" in my own body, but she did manage to plant in my mind the dreaded words, "progressive illness."  Four years later, she died of cancer.  That discussion and those four years later took care of attitude and belief!  Perhaps this answer will not be of value, but it is my experience.  Troublesome symptom:  thinking that "what I have" is worse than cancer, losing a limb, an eye, my kidneys, etc.  My mind sinking into self-pity is my most troublesome symptom,  Most, I get angry!